I am inspired today.

I am inspired to write,

each and every day.
To re-tell my story,
ensure I have a say.

A lover of peace,

fighter of injustice.
Paving that road,
reaching for solace.

Is it pre destined?

My path in light
Believe unyieldingly,
equality is in sight.

The toil, the struggle,

it’s worth every tear.
To ensure humanity,
steps out of it’s fear.

 

I said. I did. But what of you?

I said I would be there to support you

To hold your hand

As times became tougher

I promised that I would wait in the wings

while you went off and lived your life

and I sat by the window, dying inside

I told you, you were perfect

Kind, gentle, loving, loyal

as I felt unwanted, unloved, unworthy

Where are you now?

when I need your support?

Do you feel my pain?

When is it my time

to benefit from your patience?

from your understanding?

Will you ever tell me I’m good enough?

forget yourself, your troubles

appreciate whats right in front of you?

Light vs Darkness

I wonder if there really is

such a thing as seeing the light
An overarching sense of justice
simply telling us it’s alright

Are we just ultimately ruled

by kindness and all things nice
but wasn’t it just yesterday
I heard that lie uttered twice

Is there a true sense of love

that guides our everyday actions
Or do we just follow the dance
of such misguided infractions

Will we ever see the day
when love trumps all hate
but bitterness engulfs so sweetly
we again offer ourselves up as bait

Was it all just a game?

Looking back at life
I dare to ponder
what joys were had
& will be in the yonder

My tears are a river
brimming over the side
my heart in pieces
will my sadness abide

I believed in it all
Trusted you were the one
You lied & played me
till the day we were done

Did you ever have remorse
for the games you played
or was I just a pawn
in your sickening charade?

I want, I will.

I want to be happy
not to be sad
I want to be content
not to be agitated
I want to know peace
not inner turmoil
I want to be stable
not to be anarchical

I want to know joy
rather than pain
I want to know love
rather than heartbreak
I want to trust
rather than doubt
I want to believe
rather than question

I will be happy
I will be content
I will know peace
I will be stable

I will know joy
I will know love
I will trust
I will believe

Ambition

Try to write then don’t stop

make sure to keep going
Ensure it doesn’t all flop
The tides must be turning
You feel it in your bones
that forever yearning
Stay away from the drones
who poison your learning

Step out from that daze

who lethargy does taint
To then tame the maze
the future you did paint
The world at your feet
you can envision it all
Don’t miss a single beat
To then yield that call

What of love?

Then what of love
of whispers in the rain
that of fleeting romances
of believing in vain

That lovestruck feeling
the misgivings of lust
floating on that cloud
of unwavering trust

Then hand it over
your heart on a plate
the anticipation building
cruely robbed by fate

That gut-wrenching pain
springing from deep within
return to me dear misery
of which I am but akin

Darkness engulfs

I see the light
now bright as day
it falls to earth
squanders away

Wilt in the sand
seeds of dismay
just add water
flourish away

Darkness instills
seeping all through
all hope now lost
look back and rue

Colours to pass
just out of sight
stuck in our bliss
we lose the fight

Expectations

For I’m sorry
that I cannot be
those little things
You expect of me

So watch to see
what it is I embark
will it then engulf
pull me into the dark


Then step away
further from fear
be willing to let go
in order to draw near

Look beyond it all
to trust that I know
believe what is true
my spirit will flow

This strange existence

How strange a life
you seem to be
far from the shadows
engulfed by this tree

The pretence of sorrow
swallowed by pride
free from this existence
taking it all in stride

Promise to always hope
past the blindness
and then see through
to all the greatness

No matter the boulder
remember to believe
my spirit will soar
without reprieve

Song & dance

View life as a dance
a mere thoughtless sway
so hum to that beat
mindlessly press play

Read between the lines
to find that key note
hold on to it tight
then discard the quote

Conform to chorus
and stifle that voice
a melody void
for there is no choice

Tap to the music
the song in your head
let your heart rejoice
compliance now fled

Believe

I made that promise
which lasts to today
to give up the fight
the endless foray

Those days were longer
as sirens drew near
the flame extinguished
engulfed in fear

Then rise up again
a phoenix in ash
come closer to see
brightness in a flash

Stand tall once more
and look to the light
once again believe
with all of your might

Ode to humanity

An ode to humanity

we dream of the day

say farewell to brutality

but believe in dismay

The fields now silent

no burning in the sky

visions of the violent

let it all but fry

Watch as they soar

now effortlessly alive

dream some more

see it all derive

Let it flood in

the warmth and grace

allow that win

a peace you can trace

He

It was he who returned my life to me

He who made me view fate more positively

He who returned my faith in love back to me

and eventually

He who broke my heart again unknowingly

I miss

I miss his smile,

his bright green eyes, the way he used to look at me

Nights gazing at the stars, lying in bed, the laughter, the joy, the tears

His arms around me, his touch

I miss what we had, what we were

but most of all

I miss what we could've been

The Power Within

I know I was not deserving in the past
it was only when I was tested that my mind seemed to last.

Life to me seemed a guarantee
all else was minimal for fate would make me be.

Regardless of all the heartache and pain
my senses still remain.

 
What the present has made me see
is that all in life is up to me.

Mothers Day Poem

I must say that life has not always been easy for me

Constantly sitting under this wishing tree

 

Many have come and even more gone

Yet your love has always shone

No easy ride has your life been

But always was support overriding sin

 

Thank you seems so dull

As your words never rendered me null

Your love and understanding I remember without regret

as I attempt to conquer this world I will never forget

Lost

Where has all the humanity gone?

In pursuit of power and prestige

lost is the element that shone

Selfishness and materialism is all around

tainting the hearts of the majority

We have lost what we should have found

If peace and love have been abandoned

have our pockets been set to bulge

Or have our hearts been saddened?

The ways of the wealthy and powerful

stepping over those in need

paved is an avarice manual.

Influenced by the greedy and rich

of which ignorance is bliss

Has led us down a sorrowful ditch

I am who I am

I am who I am

I now see the light of day

Forget all those who doubt

and come what may

I undertake this struggle

against those who judge

my life is my own

I promise to not budge

I will cry no more

And dry up my tears

Life will go on

Despite all my fears

I step forward again

climbing out of this sack

my faith will guide me

to put me back on track

A Father's Day poem

To say that I am blessed would truly not be a stretch

I have been provided with those around me with halos around their heads

Two angels they will always be

the ones whom I live my life for, who will always treasure me

Regardless of the trials and faults at hand

those with wings never left me to be consumed by the sand

Although my inabilities have been rife

they always assured me that ultimately I would succeed in life

So although this form of appreciation seems completely inept

always remember that my life is forever in your debt